“When people want to win they will go to desperate extremes. However, anyone that has already won in life has come to the conclusion that there is no game. There is nothing but learning in this life and it is the only thing we take with us to the grave—knowledge. If you only understood that concept then your heart wouldn’t break so bad. Jealousy or revenge wouldn’t be your ambition. Stepping on others to raise yourself up wouldn’t be a goal. Competition would be left on the playing field, and your freedom from what other people think about you would light the pathway out of hell.” Shannon L. Alder
This is the thing: I’ve made some bad choices and they will be good stories one day but today is not that day – I’m waiting for the book deal. Today is a day to ponder and reflect. Kind of like this fictional example: there may come a time when you find yourself in the back seat of a car sucking down a Slurpee from 7/11, as all of your friends jump out of the car to go rob a casino. At that moment, you may ask yourself some very important questions, such as “What were the sum total of choices that were made today that got me to this place?” “How did I get myself into the re-make of Ocean’s Eleven, minus Brad Pitt, and what in the hell was I thinking?”
Backstory: This is a completely borrowed point of view, which may (or may not) have merit, that I have been entertaining for a while: soul contracts. One definition of soul contracts put plainly and simply is this (some of the words are slippery but allow me poetic license here): I make a deal with you and you make a deal with me BEFORE we are born into this world. Our “deal” (slippery word) is on a spiritual level (poetic license) and we definitely have no memory of it once we are birthed into existence. We agree to work together for the betterment of both of us. But, one of us is going to have to play the bad guy.
Let’s say in this deal/contract, I agree to play the bad guy in your life for the sole purpose of your personal growth (like being a bad mother, a cheating wife, a drug abusing daughter, etc). I essentially have to sacrifice myself by being the bad person so that you can get the lesson that is waiting for you. When you get that lesson, you reach the next level of higher consciousness. I also have the opportunity to use my bad choices and actions to further my own growth and reach the next level of higher consciousness and so it keeps going with everyone, every day in every way.
We are all working together, even when it seems like we are not. When you perceive a wrong, no matter how petty or serious, a choice is put in front of you and you have a responsibility to grow from the experience. The person who wrongs you is actually working with you to get you on track. None of the perceived wrongs against you are personal. So-and-so does not have it in for you. It was never personal. So-and-so is only the messenger/the vehicle for your growth, should you choose to grow. No worries, if you don’t though. Ever notice that the same thing keeps happening, just with different people (sort of same sh*t, different day-ish)? Those are opportunities. You are being given the chance, the opportunity, to take a different path every time it happens.
A smart woman would shut up now… but there is a good story in there. I didn’t take the high road this time, the opportunity to grow on the front end of this one, so I’m hoping that I can backtrack and grow from it now. I’m trying to change my life, but don’t push me. I’m not there yet. Trust me on this one.